Dear guy whom i love the most in the world.
When i saw a Dad piggy back his little kid, playing around like hide and seek, build a sand castle in the beach, and asking about how the school is going on.
When today i saw a boy and a baby are playing while their mom and dad was chatting. Their dad is the driver of that public transportation. Do you think his wife is nagging? No. The family seems so happy.
When i see my friends are going to have a holiday with their complete family. My lecturer sometimes uploaded their pictures in social media, it’s not really because of his teaching methods that i admire him, it’s because i see the figure, that figure that i have never seen for almost in my whole life.
I’m fine with it. Just, sometimes it sucks, I’ve never been through that moment. I always had that kind of feeling. Envy.

You are the best thing i never had.
Just today, I miss you like hell, seriously, Dad.

Dear guy whom i love the most in the world.

When i saw a Dad piggy back his little kid, playing around like hide and seek, build a sand castle in the beach, and asking about how the school is going on.

When today i saw a boy and a baby are playing while their mom and dad was chatting. Their dad is the driver of that public transportation. Do you think his wife is nagging? No. The family seems so happy.

When i see my friends are going to have a holiday with their complete family. My lecturer sometimes uploaded their pictures in social media, it’s not really because of his teaching methods that i admire him, it’s because i see the figure, that figure that i have never seen for almost in my whole life.

I’m fine with it. Just, sometimes it sucks, I’ve never been through that moment. I always had that kind of feeling. Envy.

You are the best thing i never had.

Just today, I miss you like hell, seriously, Dad.

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"Aku memandangnya yang kini terlihat seperti Malaikat tidak bersayap, dan ya, akhirnya aku mengerti mengapa mereka tidak mempercayai Tuhan, karena mereka hanya mempercayai apa yang mereka lihat dan rasakan. Kini aku mengerti mengapa mereka hanya mempercayai apa yang mereka lihat, karena mereka terlalu takut unutk mempercaai apa yang tidak bisa mereka lihat dan akhirnya berbalik menyakiti mereka sendiri. I’ve been broken  before. I know what it feels to see something funny and not laugh."

LC- Sonia P.B, 18 Tahun. Stop act like a little bitch, Son! HAHA.

No one ever really runs out things to say. Those are just like the moments you are thinking about something you choose not to say. Because sometimes, we fear what we don’t understand. (Ini dari extended version of The Time Lost)

Setiap orang, aku rasa memerlukan jeda dalam hidupnya. Bila setiap harinya disibukkan dengan aktivitas yang menguras waktu, mungkin ia perlu mengambil jeda. Jeda dimana ia bisa duduk sebentar, menarik nafas, dan melihat ke dalam diri sendiri dan sekitarnya. Apa yang sedang terjadi dan apa yang…

Lang Leav, indeed.

Lang Leav, indeed.

briliyastri:

turnyourhearttoallah:

"Sometimes you have no shoulder to cry on, but you always have a ground to put your head and shed your tears on."

Dear God, thanks for everything.

briliyastri:

turnyourhearttoallah:

"Sometimes you have no shoulder to cry on, but you always have a ground to put your head and shed your tears on."

Dear God, thanks for everything.

(via arinaysays)

Bon anniv!

Tik Tok Tik Tok.

It’s already 00.00, August, 12 2014.

Happy Birthday hey my superdeadlyannoying brother. Haha yes you are annoying, don’t argue me, regardless of your good looking face and attractive outfit. When will you get tired of teasing me? You are already 23 years old!

Today, you are one year older. I hope that you will always in God’s protection. Umh, truth to be told, i kinda miss fighting with you, laughing for an old jokes, teasing each other then crying because mom’s scolding us. But the most immensely moment that i miss is we used to pinch each other’s back when it’s hard to go to sleep. Bargaining how much we should pinch, and then you pinched me fast and lied to me that you had finished pinching till a hundred. Huh big fat liar!

You used to be scared with ghost when you were once a little boy, covering your face with piilow when the ghost appeared in the television, you are scared with cockroach, until now. You’ll scream and get panic, use anything to get rid that disgusting creature.

You’ve grown into a strong, caring, bold, persistent, and a reliable person. I wish that you will always be the humble and caring one even if i can’t see the soft side of you, who secretly has a wide heart as wide as the ocean. Hiking and learning is you fav things rite now, cause i can see your happy face when you do it.

Once again, happy birthday my beloved brother, may all the best wishes around you forever.

Thank you so much for being such a great brother. And I believe that someday  you’ll be a good father for your childs.

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Sincerely,

Your younger sister.

The Fault in Our Stars, definitely.

The Fault in Our Stars, definitely.

apology

It’s one door swinging open and one door swinging closed. Some prayers find an answer. Some prayers never know.

Kata dari film yang maaf gue samar-samar ini dari mana tapi gue inget jelas: “Trust is not something that just fall from the sky. Trust is something you build through times and relationships.” Ya gitu, percaya itu butuh waktu, setidaknya itu yang gue tau. Kadang bahkan orang terdekat lu aja belum tentu bisa dipercayai kan. Kebaikan tidak selalu dibalas dengan kebaikan, dunia tidak sesederhana itu. Bisa aja yang lu ceritain cuma A, tapi orang lain ceritain bisa jadi A atau Z, atau A sampai Z mungkin. Ya pengalaman sih ini. Makanya jangan ditelen gitu aja kalau ada cerita/berita. Bahkan sekalipun itu perkataan atau pelajaran dari orang pinter pun gabisa lu telen gitu aja, harus tetep baca buku lagi, karena sepintar apapun dia masih tetep bisa keliru bukan?

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 But yourself.

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There’s that occasional night where you just break down and cry because you know that everything maybe will never be the same again. So, can we restart everything all over again? because when we restart, i (maybe) get another chance to make things right. Sorry, for everything i did. Cheesy banget ya minta maaf disini tapi ya gimana this is all that i can do, kata Maya Angelou sih there is no greater agony than bearing an untold story inside you. Gatau juga harus ceritanya gimana karena lu gak bakal sepenuhnya mengerti seseorang sampai lu melihat sesuatu dari sudut pandang orang itu.

I have seen your shortcomings, and i’m staying.

Je suis vraiment désolé, c’etait de ma faute :’)

- 982K14